Message in a bottle

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

房租起价

要来的始终是会来的，看着朋友们的房租屋租一个一个的涨，也料到迟早有一天自己也会遭殃，屋主不是笨的啦，看着房地产一天一天的涨，难道他不会为之所动吗？

屋主今天开口了，起＄400.00；和学群，谋隆，Andy 讨论了好一阵子，决定和屋主商量，目标是杀价＄200.00，杀价不成杀成＄100.00，哎呀！帮助不大可是好过没有。

结果起价＄300.00。。屋主狮子张大口，还好只是小咬而已，死不了，可是还是伤了。因为我们组的是一整间房子，经济负担原本就重，现在这负担更重了。可以看到同屋的已经动摇了，不难理解，因为我自己也动摇了。呆在新加坡好像越来越贵了。

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
10:04 AM

Friday, February 22, 2008

太在乎，就什麼也得不到

不像讀書考試一樣，對於一個人的追求

並不是你付出的越多，得到的回報就會越大

如果把你的給予當橫軸，別人的回應當縱軸畫成曲線

你會發現邊際遞減率在一個定值之後以非常不可思議的速度上升

為什麼，我每天打電話對她噓寒問暖，得到的只是冷漠的回應？

為什麼，在一群朋友出去玩的時候，她總是對我特別疏遠？

為什麼，即使我竭盡所能的對她好，卻仍無法在她心中擁有一丁點應得的地位？

我說：「太在乎，就什麼也得不到」

當你太在乎一個人的時候，你的心裡能裝的下的東西就變少了

滿腦子想的都是她，無時無刻都在想能為她做些什麼

於是，你喪失了自我，成為一個為別人而活的人。

你不再有自己的生活，不再有和對方不一樣的地方

每說一句話，你都小心翼翼，期待能夠有好的回應

每做一件事，你都考慮再三，希望她能夠被你感動

然後你會發現，聊天的話題好像變少了，相處不在像從前當朋友般的開心自在

她隨口說出的一句話，網誌上的一篇心情，可以牽動你全身的神經，有時讓你開心不已，

但大部分的時候卻是讓你魂不守舍一整天。

隨之而來的，是她開始感受到壓力

生命是一種很容易適應變化的東西

如同把雙腳泡在熱水中，不一會兒就從有點燙變成舒適的溫暖

一開始你對她好，感覺是很鮮明，很強烈的

會很開心，會很感激

但如果頻率太高，強度太大

就好像坐在按摩椅上太久一般

舒服的感覺不見了，

取而代之的是想要好好靜一下的需要。

如果這時還繼續強求下去

最後的結局就是發卡甚至被討厭。

"欲擒故縱才是最高明的技巧"

大概大家聽到耳朵都爛了吧。

你知道，我知道，可是就是做不到。

沒有辦法不對她好。

當我們越是在乎一個人的時候，越難拿捏自己的分寸

不是對她好到無以復加，就是賭氣強迫自己疏離耍自閉。

所以，最簡單的方法，就是不去在意。

對自己好一點，努力追尋自己的理想

不斷的充實自己，為自己的將來做準備

功課不夠好嗎？去圖書館多K一些書吧

人長的不夠帥嗎？去健身房把自己變成陽光形男吧

嫌自己口才不佳，進對應退不夠圓滑，那麼參加社團磨練一番吧

這些事情，夠你忙的了

然後，把她放在你心中的優先順序的第二位，甚至第三位

會發現，一切都變簡單了

不是說兩個人就一定會有結果

而是你開始可以跳脫這個泥沼，用更客觀精準的眼光

看待彼此之間的關係

不再動不動就心情低落，不再被對方牽著鼻子走。

因為你知道，世界不是由她構成的。

即使失敗了，也還有很多值得去追尋的目標。

然後，珍惜兩個人相處的時光

在一起的時候，可以用盡全部的力氣去對她好，讓她如沐春風

而平常的時候，則是為自己的目標付出百分之百的努力，不為了別人，只為了自己。

很輕鬆的，你不用在煩惱什麼時候該對她好，怎樣增加相處的機會。

順其自然，你絕對會被珍惜，而不會被當作理所當然。

最後

成功了，恭喜，有情人終成眷屬。

失敗了，有點遺憾，也許是不適合，或許是沒緣分。

但無論如何，你都是贏家。

因為你又成長了

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
6:00 PM

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Back in Singapore

Yup!! Back in Singapore already, I can't believe that there is 14 days I didn't online already. House don't have internet, don't even bother to go cyber caffee or friends house to check mail =) almost totally detached from lifes in Singapore. Slow pace, Family, Friends, Relatives, No work, House, Car, just enjoying life back at Tawau.

After coming back to Singapore, having difficult to take up the pace and work again, Going back home early these days, not doing OT at all, coz I told myself to rest well for the month of february, don't burden myself with too much work, then at March then start 冲again.

I haven't told John nor Ray that I have come back, not at the moment, fearing that all the cell group things and ministry things will come back again. Going back home really had made me think again, Is it really that neccessary to be so involved in cell group and ministry?? My base is at Tawau, it is where I come from, one day I MIGHT decide to go back. Is it really worth it to do so much things and sacrisfy so much in a foreign place? when Kristal msn me asking me to take back the trainee, it really take me so long before I agree to take it back

I guess I am just LAZY, need some time to pick up the PACE...

P.S.:
Many hometown friends asked will I consider going back to Tawau, normally my answer is "NOT LIKELY", surely it is NOT a "NO". I do not consider going back in short terms (10-20 years), but when Father and Mother grow old, do I dare to leave them alone back there? do I dare not to accompany them and take care of them after all the sacrisfice they have provided for me? but if I decided to ask them to migrate here to Singapore, is it appropriate to ask them to leave all the , bussiness, relatives, properties and stay in a foreign place?? will they feel comfortable?? 哎呀！头大！

Labels: Feelings

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
9:53 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Chinese New Year 2008

This year CNY is quite an interesting one, got to stay in the new house located at Jalan Sin Onn, actually didn't have much expectation on this new house initiallly. Coz you know lar, mother is doing all the decoration so expect it to be some budget, old fasion kind of design. But once I stept into the house, WOW!! So Nice, I like the white theme.. particularly I like the living room. ^o^ Mother really done a great job.

House Photo

Living Room

Computer corner located at 2nd floor

Almost every night became a welcome dinner/supper to welcome overseas friends who are coming back in different days. Firstly it was mine, Vun Keat, Samuel Tiong, Shim Gek Chong, then it was Edward's.. like a big reunion things. Talking about what are we doing recently, some interesting stories, updates, and surely our sweet old memories during high schools and A-level times. Everynight was going back home after 12am was sitting there chit chatting untill the coffee shop 赶人, but fear not, coz got my own car, another things I like about being at home, no fear about no transpotation Haha..

During actual days of Chinese New Year met a lot lost old friends, such a Seah Jun Gee, David Chia, Syaswani, Zhou Li Jun, Lucinda, Luo Shi Hui, Tsen.... So exciting, so much story to tell and so much story to listen to... The gathering at wilson's place was even best, 30 over old classmates gather at one place, the whole place like 巴刹, everyone had their own story to tell, it is only at this time of the year that you can meet so many old classmates.. enjoy spending times with them..

The rest of the days, was going to relatives place to 拜年, not a lot, but are some closed relatives, some one like 外公, 外婆, 大姑, 二姑, 叔叔 who loves me a lot and is proud of me as who I am. ^^; One more year has past, must visit them in this time of the years, knowing that they already very happy happy when you visit them.

The last few days was rather boring, coz friends are gradually going back to work, no so much "Yam Ca" time, was catching up drama series 奸人坚 enjoying my leisure time back at home.

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
9:59 PM