Message in a bottle

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Giving Up Ministry??

Today's Service was really really good. Pastor Tan really speaking directly into my heart. Having a though of leaving the ministry earlier on, really exhausted, burned out, run over by the amount of things need to be done, be it for recruitment, team, welfare, photo taking. SIGH!!!! Too much things to be done and I have only limited time. No one cares, just thing to be done..

Things get worse when I have High fever few weeks before.. really sick, but these things still need to be done. Struggeling intensively at the begining, then give up TOTALLY. Totally burned out, just wanted to leave the ministry, I can't keep it up anymore..

In my mind thinking "Let this section blog be my legacy for usher ministry" finding opportunity to tell Ray that I won't be continuing to help them out. Can't continue..

Today's service Pastor Tan was talking about ministry, Example through brokeness. During ministry author call, I asked God again and again:

"God, won't you let me go?"

"God, won't you let me go?"

"God, won't you let me go?"

numberous time, then

"God, won't stop care for me?"

then

"God, will you stop loving me?"

finally asked myself

"Are you willing??"

................

I will still stayed in the ministry, serve as much as I would, but with a condition, one thing I realize when I am very really sick few weeks back, family and career is still be most important part of my life, ministry comes 3rd, anything that violationg this cannot stand. It is also part of the reason why am I struggling so hard with the ministry at the begining.

Prayer Meeting with Pastor Ming at the evening was SOLID man, Prayed really really hard, and enjoy praying more than ever. =) Pastor Ming is super, annointed and yet funny. LOL..

Labels: Feelings

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
10:40 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Perhentian Island Trip 1-3 May08

Wanna emphasis more about this tour guide Andy Luo. His hospitality and funny jokes really helps to make this trip even more enjoyable. It is really important to have a great tour guide to guide you along.

Here is his website:
PerhentianPackage.com

Some picture taken together with Andy according to sequence, notice it is getting more and more extreme?? (, ")

Picture taken at Kelantan Trip, this trophy is suppose to be given to THE BEST MALE ATHLETE in one of the National Sport Competition, cost around RM15,000 (, ")

十字路口

Labels: Vacation

This bottle was thrown to the sea on:
9:08 AM

Perhentian Island Trip 1-3 May 2008

Has been to Perhentian Island @ Terrengganu last long weekend with a bunch of lovely colleagues 9 of us who also love to travel a lot. This trip is fantastic I would say, nice beach, nice scenery, nice bunch of people to stick with and a fantactic tour guide.

Though this is a Perhentian Island Package, but we manage to go to all the 3 island there, Perhentian Island, Redang Island, and Lang Tengah Island, travel between them with speedboat. it is fast, it is bumpy because of the waves and its a good experience.

The snorkelling trip is quite intense, 3 snorkelling trip covering all the three island:
Turtle hunt (Perhentian)
Shark Point (Perhentian)
Coral View (Perhentian)
Redang Beach Coral (Redang)
Redang Marine Park (Redang)
Baby Shark hunt (Lang Tengah)
Finding Memo (Lang Tengah)
it was so tiring, until we just want to be drag by the tour guide Andy Lua for the last few snorkelling trip, No energy to swim anymore.

On the way back from every snorkeling trip, we will always stop at this place Air Berani waterpool to wash away the salty sea water, the spring water is cold and is drinkable. According to Andy Lua, this is the place where Perhentian get its name as many of the fishermans and sea traveller will stop at this place to top up their fresh water supply.

In the evening, we just hanging around at the Perhentian Beach to watch sunset over there, snorkelling at local beaches, for some of us, learn swimming (,") At night time, go for "Blue Sand" hunt, initially I was hard for us to spot even one single blue sand (sand that grow in blue light along perhentian beaches), but when we learned the secret technique, finding blue sand in no more difficult for us. LOL.. We also able to watch squid on hunt for small fishes at nearby jetty.

In short this trip is very nice. The only draw back is the 10 hours trip forth and back from Larkin to Jerteh. It is long, it is very cold, like getting in a freezer. =(